The question was asked for reflection, what “blessed surprises” have I experienced that I could testify of God’s goodness. It grabbed my attention in a fresh way, but somehow I knew the answer instantly.
This has been a different kind of December for us.
Our advent tradition for many years has been to live simply and focus on Christ. We light candles on our advent wreath and share in family devotions about hope, love, joy, and peace. We read scriptures and share our hearts about what it means to live it out in our daily lives.
We have a tradition of writing our thanks to Jesus every day in the month of December. On Christmas morning, the first gift to be opened is our praise. It brings joy to hear what each person has reflected on that month as we give God our gratitude and adoration. It humbles us before God that this is His day and the reason we celebrate.
Advent is always full of meaning for us, lots of added family activities for fun, with the least amount of emphasis on shopping which is really only one small part. This year is no different for me in some ways… only richer, more important, and deeper. Something in particular though stands out.
As I have reflected on all that I’m grateful for most recently, I want to share two “blessed surprises.” It is what has made this December markedly different for me. These two scenes are a window into how God is transforming my heart. Perhaps because they came so close together, I was able to see how incredibly profound and sacred they were. God gave me a deep heart for two women this past week that I will save anonymity and rename here.
The first woman I’ll call Ruth. We had never met in person, but through Visiting Orphans we developed the start of a precious friendship. Ruth was scheduled to travel to China with me for a mission trip. The timing was just enough for us to start a bond, and then for God to soon bring two beautiful daughters home from Ethiopia and China. I missed out on having her on my team, but I was incredibly honored to pray her two little girls home.
Through the months of Ruth’s adoption journeys, I have followed her blog postings and prayed my heart out for her family. Facebook connected us further as we could share in prayer updates and family photos. We have emailed some deep heartfelt concerns and held each other up at the throne of God. And yet, we had never met in person.
The past few months have been horrifically painful for her, as Ruth’s dad battled an abrupt and vicious cancer. My heart was so knitted in that I carried her family in many, many heartfelt prayers. Her dad passed away a week ago today.
As God would have it, I happened to be passing through her town several hours away on the day of the viewing. Details the way only God can orchestrate, I was able to hug her tight in her grief. I was able to see with my own eyes and touch the hands of these two precious little girls that I prayed countless prayers for. God had connected our hearts and it was sacred to be there in person.
The second woman I’ll name Hannah. I had rushed late as usual into a church pew, apparently into the very seat God had saved for me. It was the only one open. I sat alone, the girls upstairs in their classes and the boys on a weekend away with Todd. As we “passed the peace”, I met Hannah, who was already familiar with Todd from their recovery meetings. She asked where he was, exchanged brief greetings and sat back down.
Throughout the service, I noticed Hannah wiping away tears. Afterward, I asked if there was something I could pray for her. I didn’t know if she would offer any words or not, but I wanted her to know God cared for her. I knew the details were well known by God, and my place in that moment was to be present for her.
In her anguish, she opened up to me. Her honesty and desperation were the kind of transparency that I have experienced and greatly appreciated in the recovery community. She invited me into her story. She gave me a part of her heart that was in deep need of comfort and hope. She asked for nothing from me.
I embraced her with genuine depth and sincerity. I met her daughter and jotted down the names of her family that I could continue to lift up to God. And then in a way that only God can do through people who have walked suffering so deep, I was able to breathe life into her. I know how hard it can be when your world is in so much pain, but there is hope!! God can turn things around!! It takes time, but He can and He will.
I left church with my life changed in that very moment. It was with Hannah that I felt “church” had taken place in the way scriptures calls us to come alongside the broken. It was with Hannah that I was able to see the transformation in my own heart of how I could relate to her story like never before. It was with Hannah that my heart most genuinely, affectionately worshipped. Newly found gratitude, warmth, and affection for the God that had allowed me to walk a similar journey.
Oh God!!! I get it!!! This is why You let me walk heartache and suffering. This is how You invite me into the stories and hearts and lives of the hurting. My heart sees. My heart is compelled. I can’t help but draw near.
I have walked incredible grief and sorrow and pain…and sometimes barely survived. But with that, He calls me to enter into those same familiar places, where His people need deep comfort and authentic hope. Be present. Be willing.
The world rushes by…… I feel it so strongly to the core of my being that it absolutely aches within me. There are so many distractions, so much busyness, so many things to do, and time is gone. But if we fall into those traps, we completely miss the sacred. The blessed surprises. The opportunities to see Jesus right there in our midst.
It’s a different kind of December for me. At the top of my most treasured reflections of God’s goodness this month is in the sacred interactions with Ruth and Hannah. I am humbled and in awe that God would allow me to be a small part of their journey, to deeply understand their pain. A glimmer of hope to embrace them in their suffering. God is here. God loves. God comes.